So I've decided to change my outlook on some things and I am slowly working on those things one at a time. I have a huge list of how I want to change my life, but yeah I know I can't acomplish them all over night. Basically I am doing my own personal cleansing if you want to call it that. I am working on a new emotional, mental, and physical changes of myself. I am 30 now, I have three decades behind me and haven't acomplished all that I had hoped to by now, so it's time to kick up and get to where I want to be. If it takes a year or two I am ok with that, I just want to stick to my "thirty, flirty, and fabulous" outlook on life.
1. Change my emotional states. I've always been told I'm an emotional woman. I know I have become stronger as the years have gone by, but I know this can still use some work. I make decisions and react to things with emotion instead of thinking things through and being rational, I know that sometimes the emotion in something takes over and I do something silly or embaressing or what not. Yes I have passion for things, but that is different. I am talking when something as simple as good critisim is taken the wrong way and I defend myself and act emotionally for no reason. This is the kind of thing I want to learn to control. I know it is ok to have emotion, but I need to know when to show it at the appropriate times.
2. Mental changes. In this aspect I am trying to work on my insight on life. I tend to have a negative outlook on things when I really shouldn't. Whether it be hard on myself for how I look or what I weigh, or not nailing something fast enough at work, that kind of thing. I tend to beat myself up for it. I realize now this only brings me down and gets me no where. Instead of dwelling on bad things, why not learn from a mistake or what not and focus on something positive for a change. I am working on this through reading as well as my Dahn Yoga class, where they teach us about our minds as well as our bodies. That we need to be happy with who we are and in return people around us will be happy...etc. I find when I go to class, even in a bad mood, I come out in a great mood, so it's got to be working in some aspect.
3. Physical changes. My body isn't what it used to be, and it never will be that body I had when I was 17. But I know I can make it healthy and strong again with dicipline and exercise. I am lifting weights, doing my cardio and my yoga. I want to feel good physically and mentally. When your body is working the way it's supposed to, you will not feel sick or tired or like you are lacking when you eat normal, etc. It's important to get my body in good shape now, because it only gets harder the older you get. So far I find myself doing very well at this, I just need to make it routine and stick with it as time goes on, and I know I will get in that sexy skirt and a nice blouse that hugs my curves again.
So those are my three new goals and how I am trying to achieve them. I want to turn into someone that people can look up to again, mentally, emotionally or for advice on getting healthy. I want to be that person that walks by and people go wow, she looks great, she is always smiling and carries herself with confidence. I want my confidence back and I believe with some time and with the great people around me who are supporting me and helping me I will be there before I know it.... :)
You rock! Taking time out to catalog your positive changes will really help your self esteem, and will help others! I know you need the first, but I also know how important the second one is because I know what a Badass you are, and how kind-hearted!
ReplyDeleteYou must love yourself before you can love another .. :) That's a great start. Yoga is great as a practice and a wonderful place to start it'll add 10 years to your life :).
ReplyDeleteDon't be so hard on yourself some of the issues you're having may be out of your control (weight/hormones etc). Get as healthy as you can but don't forget it's ok to see a doctor in case you need some help. I'm glad I did I'm finding out all kinds of things I've known for years and most doctors just dismissed..
Make short term goals and a few long term goals :) You can totally do it!
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