Finding inner peace?

I often wonder what it means to be me.  I guess what I mean by that is why am I here, what is my purpose in this lifetime.  Am I meant to be something amazing and glamorous or am I supposed to be just the average Joe Blow who goes through life just hanging on as much as they can, nothing really to show for it?  What makes a person rich, is it money or is it other things in life?  Yeah we could all use a million bucks in our life, but buying things we could never really afford before, is that what is going to make a person happy?  I think it goes past the monetary value of something, past the possessions one has. 

First and foremost, I think for someone to truly be happy, they must be content and happy with themselves.  No one can be happy only if they have "things" or "people" in their life.  If you can't be happy alone, how can you ever be truly happy with another human being?   I have silly things like this go through my mind all the time.  Wondering, pondering the meaning of everything.  Not sure how many other people think like I do, but man it drives me bonkers sometimes.  I feel like I"m crazy or something.  I just want to find that perfect harmony that makes me completely content with everything around me.

I've started by getting content with my body.  I am taking care of it and nurturing it back into the state it should be in.  I give her enough water to stay hydrated, I am fueling her with more fruits and veggies, allowing the digestive track to work properly.  I'm slowly working up my exercise routine so that I get in optimal health again, no problems with my body fat or my cholesterol or even my stomach.  It's about getting me to a point that I feel amazing without having to take medications to feel OK.  Once I become comfortable with my health and my body, that will be a major step in the things I want to accomplish. 


Next, work on complete contentment with my mind and soul.  Now this is a bit more tricky.  How does one fight their own mind you ask...it's been a long process to get even where I am today.  Learning from everything I do, not always judging everything based on the past.  Forgiving myself for mistakes and learning to be stronger and move on in life with less guilt and things holding me back.  Am I completely there, hell no, but I think I've made major progress over the recent years and I plan to continue working on it as I go.