We all have ideas of what we want and where we want to be in the future. But what happens when the future is now in the present and you haven’t done all the things you’ve wanted or achieved all your goals? Do you set new goals or keep those goals and set a new date? Why do we set goals and yet don’t achieve them in the first place, isn’t the point to reach those goals no matter what the cost? I guess I would have had a lot more to show for myself at 30, but nope, I’m still just me, living each day one day at a time, still don’t have those things I really want, but still hoping to get them.
I think I reached some of my goals, goals like my college degree, a good job, nice car, etc. But I’m still lacking in more personal places of my life. I am lacking in personal health, but man I’m working on that! I have not yet had the chance to become a mother, which is something I want really badly! I know you can’t rush things like that, but I am already 30, I mean how long should I have to wait? I really would like to get my Master’s degree, but I need to put some decrease in my student loans first. I don’t want to pile more debt on myself when I’m trying to get out of it.
I think I just really need to figure out what goals are most important to me right now, this minute and work on some kind of game plan to figure them out. I need to stop procrastinating and stop putting off things to make others happy all the time. Maybe, just maybe I should try to make it a little about me for a change. I know, that sounds so strange coming from my mouth, but I’m tired of putting my wants, needs and desires on the back burner. I’m going to try and start focusing some time and energy into becoming someone much better than I am today.
So thinking about it now, these are the goals I want to accomplish, let’s say in the next 5 years:
Get Healthy – I’m doing pretty well with this one so far, but it can always have room for improvement. I am eating better and a whole lot less, and I try to figure in exercise some way or another every day. This isn’t about dieting, but about a lifestyle change and making me feel young and beautiful again. I’m taking steps to become an organic eater, take no medications and try to do things the natural way. I have cut out all medications I was taking, even the advair. I’ve had a few rough days, but nothing I could fight through so far. That’s just the beginning, by summer time I plan to knock em’ dead at the beach!
Decide on a Master’s degree of finish out my 2nd bachelors degree in Marine Biology-Marine Biology has always been my love and something I wanted to do. Unfortunately moving to Texas ruined that for me, there were no programs for it and who wants to be in Galveston Bay anyway? I ended up getting my bachelors in Computer Information systems and I do pretty well working in that field so far, but I don’t know that it is my true calling. I want to find my career path that puts me where I want to be emotionally and financially.
Find my dream city – I want to find a city where I love the area and the people and everything around me. I want to find a place to start planting some roots. I want to own my own home again, have it fixed up just the way I want it and it be in an area I would mind living for awhile. If there is one thing I’ve learned about myself, I bore easily and love change and moving! It’s like I can’t be in one place too long or I get stir crazy. I like Dallas, but maybe it’s area I live in that is boring me, I do not know, but I’m starting to get that I’m ready to move somewhere else feeling again.
Become a mother- Yes I know, this one isn’t something you can do on your own. Well technically these days that isn’t true, but where is the fun in making a child with artificial insemination? Isn’t part of becoming a mother the fun of conceiving the child? LOL…just thought I’d throw that out there. Anyway, I just need someone to volunteer to be the job, I’d prefer to be in a relationship with someone to have a child, but I’d be totally OK doing it on my own also. I just have this feeling like I’m supposed to be a mother and I want to be one, so why am I not one? Also, people saying oh you need be married first. I’ve already done the marriage thing, maybe I’ll do it again someday, but why do you need be married to be a parent? Isn’t it just harder on a kid when they are around to watch the parents’ divorce if it was to happen? Just some food for thought.
I like your blog.
ReplyDeleteI think that if you are getting tired of where you're currently living, you should do some research and think about where you could live that you might be able to pursue Marine Biology. If that's something that really makes you happy, don't settle.
Who knows? You might be destined to meet someone in your new city. Bow Chica Wowow!
Just remember though, as much of a blessing children are, they might complicate your other goals of education and financial stability.
-Starz
I'm so happy that I finally found your blog! Its funny you should write about your five year goals, I just received my first PDP (Professional Development Plan) assignment at work and I have to take a new look at mine, which have drastically changed in the last year.
ReplyDeleteI can tell that you've done some thinking about all this, and in my opinion, its all possible! Toward the beginning you mentioned something about not stopping until you accomplish your goals and concerns about why you haven't gotten to the finish line yet.
I'm sure if you think back over the past five years there were other things that made you happy or you needed to take care of something, that took priority, not that you've been sitting on your ass waiting for your goals to accomplish themselves.
I think you should create your 1 year goals with these finales in mind. There are plenty of things you can do to step toward your ultimate goals. Keep in mind its overwhelming to take on all of this at once, take it one step at at time!
Only one last thing, don't get too bogged down with the details... Goals change just like we do. So, if you find your self writing a new list, its not because you've given up, its because you've grown.
Oh! Kudos's for taking some time for you!
Smooches!
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